my guardian angel. / Carly Stewart-Whitaker (girlfriend)Read >>
my guardian angel. / Carly Stewart-Whitaker (girlfriend)
My shaun I miss you much i love you with all my heart. not a day goes by that i dont think about you. it wasnt supposed to be this way shaun. you weren't supposed to leave me behind. we had our whole lives together. me and you. us. it still doesnt seem real everytime i go to anniston i expect to open the door and see your smiling face. this isn't fair i have this huge hole in my heart. i need you so much shaun. i feel like i am falling apart. tonight is the first time i have cried in awhile. it feels good to let it out. i just want to see you one last time. to tell you how much you mean to me how much i love you. would it have been enough to save you? i miss holding your hand. layin on the couch in the living room with your momma and shelby watchin movies and laughin. you hold the key to my heart michael shaun whitaker i love you. always and forever. no matter what.
thinking of you!! / Chiree Whitaker (mother)Read >>
thinking of you!! / Chiree Whitaker (mother)
Hey my angel
I miss you so much. Not a time goes by that I don't think of you and somthing silly that you would do. Everday I past that house where you died I think about that horrible day son. I wish I could go back in time and I could've seen you with the gun. I would've taken the bullet for you. I owuld give my life for either one of my kids.
life just isn't the same now. Most of the time I cry when Shelby is not looking or listening. I know you are safe and happy but I am so lonely without you and moma. Sometimes i try to figure out why I am still here. I am not strong enough to do this the rest of my life. Everyone thinks I am telling them a joke when I say i will die of a broken heart. But it is true. That is how I will go.
Don't be nanny and grandma. I know how you are and you got skinner up there to and he is a big kid. Give everyone a kiss from me and tell them I will see them soon. I will also see you soon to son. We have so much to catch up on. You can come and visit me like nanny does. Even though I cried that morning it felt good to see her and talk to her. So please try to fit me in your busy schedule son.
i miss you / Kerri Rhodes (friend)
shaun why cant you be here and help me through this darkest part of my life! i feel like im dieing and burning all inside! i miss you more than words emotions or anything could ever explain! you was always there for me in these momments when i needed you the most now your not! my life is a shattered piece of glass. i have lost so many people things and LIFE most of all! my momma cant talk to me because of my dad and my dad wont speak one word to me! i miss them shaun my little brother and sister was my life which you knew! i have nothing anymore give me hints that you are still around motivate me to do things i love you shuan you was my bestfriend! my world! my role model! i love you always know that and there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think of you Close
I MISS YOU SO MUCH. I NEED YOU TO GIVE ME STRENGTH SON. I AM SO LOST RIGHT NOW AND THE PAIN NEVER LETS UP. IT IS STILL LIKE I JUST LOST YOU. IT IS STILL SO HARD FOR ME TO REALIZE YOU'RE GONE. I FIND MYSELF WAITING ON YOU TO CALL OR COME UP THE HALL LAUGHING CAUSE YOU MADE NANNY MAD. YOU BETTER NOT BE AGGRAVATING HER.
PLEASE BE WITH UNCLE MARVIN ON THS TRIP TO GERMANY. I AM GONNA MISS HIM. I WORRY ABOUT HIM GOING THAT FAR. BUT HE WILL ENJOY IT.
WELL BABY I GOTTA GO VISIT NANNIES WEBSITE. I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU SO MUCH. I'LL SEE YOU SOON!!
MY BIRTHDAY WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)Read >>
MY BIRTHDAY WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)
HEY MY BLUE EYED ANGEL
I MISS YOU SO MUCH SON. WORDS COULD NEVER DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL.. I AM SO LONELY. WITHIN A YEAR I LOST YOU AND NANNY.. SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE ALL I HAVE IS SHELBY.. SHE IS WHAT KEEPS ME GOING.. I HOPE YOU'RE NOT DRIVING NANNY CRAZY. I AM SO GLAD SHE IS UP THERE WITH YOU CAUSE I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT YOU AS MUCH. IT STILL DOESN'T STOP ME FRO MISSING YOU OR HER. I MISS YALL SO TERRIBLY.. IT IS SO HARD ON ME WHEN BIRTHDAYS AND HOLIDAYS COME UP. I HAVE THE MEMORIES OF ALL THE OTHER ONES BUT IT ISN'T LIKE YOU BEING HERE. I MISS YOU SO MUCH SON.. THERE IS NOTHING THAT CAN BREAK THE BOND OF A MOTHER AND HER CHILD... NOTHING CAN BREAK THAT BOND EVEN DEATH CAN'T...
SON I AM ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU AND MISSING YOU.. I DON'T THINK I WILL EVER BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH YOUR DEATH MUCH LESS FORGET YOU LIKE EVERYONE TELLS ME TO.. THEY HAVE NO IDEA UNLESS THEY HAVE WALKED IN MY SHOES.. I KNOW WE HAD PROBLEMS BUT EVERYTHING I DID I DID IT FOR YOUR BEST INTEREST. I JUST WANTED YOU TO GROW UP AND GET OFF THE DRUGS. BUT I GUESS IN THE END THE DRUGS WON.. I REPLAY THAT DAY IN MY HEAD SO MANY TIMES A DAY. I FEEL LIKE I AM IN A LIVING HELL NOW. SON THERE IS NOTHING THAT WE COULDN''T HAVE GOTTEN THRU...THE POLICE SAID IT WAS AN ACCIDENTAL SUICIDE AND THAT IS WHAT I TRY TO BELIEVE.. I REFUSE TO BELIEVE YOU TOOK YOUR OWN LFE ON PURPOSE.. LIKE I SAID I REPLAY THAT DAY A MILLION TIMES A DAY IN MY MIND.
I KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN A BETTER PLACE AND YOUR NOT HURTING AND NO ONE CAN HURT YOU OR GIVE YOU DRUGS. BUT I MISS YOU MORE THAN WORDS COULD EVER SAY. YOU TAKE CARE OF NANNY AND DON'T BE MEAN TO HER.. GIVE HER A KISS FOR ME AND TEL HER I LOVE & MISS HER SO MUCH..
SECOND JULY 4TH WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)Read >>
SECOND JULY 4TH WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)
HEY SON,
THIS IS MY SECOND JULY 4TH WITHOUT YOU AND THE PAIN IS STILL JUST AS BAD AS IT WAS THE DAY YOU LEFT ME. NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T THINK ABOUT YOU. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE HAPPY CAUSE NANNY IS UP THERE WITH YOU. I KNOW SHE WILL KEEP YOU STRAIGHT.
I STILL DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY ASKING WHY YOU WANTED TO LEAVE ME. IT SEEMS LIKE EVERYONE I LOVE IS WALKING OUT OF MY LIFE. WORDS COULD NEVER DESCRIBE HOW I FEEL. IT IS A LIVING HELL.
I Remember Shaun / Melissa Lackey (2nd cousin once removed )Read >>
I Remember Shaun / Melissa Lackey (2nd cousin once removed )
Hello Shaun, You probably didn't remember me, but I worked with your Momma and your Nanny at Burger King. I met you when you were only 2. Looking at the pictures your Momma has on this page, I remember some of it...I have the Christmas picture of you and Shelby together. I have pictures of you and Leslie riding tricycles at a cook-out at my house one summer....I am saddened to learn of your loss...my heart breaks for Chiree and Shelby and all the others left behind....I have spent several hours reading over all your notes from friends and family. I lit a candle for you myself. I kick myself because I did not stay in touch with your Momma. I remember the last time I saw you. You were with your Dad and he brought you and Shelby to Texaco in Oxford where I was working and I was so surprised because you remembered me.....you were truly a blessing and no one will ever be the same without you here....I will keep you in my prayers....
I'M MISSING YOU SO MUCH. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN HANG ON. SINCE NANNY PASSED AWAY ALL THE PAIN IS GETTING UNBEARABLE. NOW SINCE I HAVE LOST YOU AND NANNY I STAY SO SCARED OF LOSING SOMEONE ELSE. MY LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME. I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND HAVE BOTH OF YOU BACK.
I HEARD BRANDON AND JUSTIN BOTH ARE BACK IN JAIL. THEY HAVE REALLY GOTTEN WORSE SINCE YOU PASSED. MAYBE ONE DAY THEY WILL LEARN THEIR LESSON.
PLEASE BE WITH SHELBY AND HELP HER TO DEAL WITH LOSING YOU AND NANNY. SHE IS STILL WEARING THAT BLACK HAT JUST LIKE YOURS. SHE EVEN WEARS IT BACKWARDS LIKE YOU DID. SOMETIMES I THINK YOU ARE LIVING THRU HER CAUSE SOME OF THE THINGS THAT SHE DOES REMINDS ME SO MUCH OF YOU. I DID CARRY HER TO SEE YOUR DADDY A FEW WEEKS AGO. HE FINALLY GAVE ME YOUR BIBLE. HE ALSO GAVE SHELBY ALOT OF YOUR STUFF THAT YOU HAD COLLECTED. SHE HAS IT HID SOMEWHERE.
WELL MY BLUE EYED ANGEL I'M GONNA GO. I WILL WRITE YOU AGAIN SOON. YOU TAKE CARE OF NANNY AND GIVE HER A BIG KISS FROM ME AND TELL HER I MISS YOU TWO MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO SEE YOU TWO. I AM JUST SO LOST SON. PLEASE BE WITH ME AND HELP ME.
WELL YOU HAVE NANNY UP THERE WITH YOU AND I BET YALL ARE HAVING THE TIMES OF OUR LIFE. I WISH I COULD BE THERE. I AM SO READY TO JOIN YOU SON. I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN DO THIS. I AM TIRED AND LONELY AND CONFUSED. DON'T YOU BE GIVING NANNY A HARD TIME. I KNOW SHE IS HAPPY BECAUSE SHE IS UP THERE WITH YOU AND GRANNY. AFTER 25 YEARS SHE FINALLY GOT TO SEE HER MOTHER. I WANNA BE THERE WITH YALL SO MUCH. I AM LIKE A ZOMBIE WALKING AROUND. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE SON. YOU AND MOTHER PLEASE GUIDE ME AND GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO GET THRU THIS CAUSE I AM SO READY TO GIVE UP. SON I REALLY NEED TO FEEL YOU AND NANNY WITH ME. PLEASE GIVE ME A SIGN THAT YALL ARE OK AND HAPPY SON. GIVE NANNY A BIG KISS FOR ME AND TELL HER I LOVE HER AND MISS HER SO MUCH.
MOTHER'S DAY WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)Read >>
MOTHER'S DAY WITHOUT YOU / CHIREE WHITAKER (MOTHER)
HEYSON,
I WAS SITTING HERE THINKING ABOUT YOU AND TOMORROW BEING MOTHER'S DAY. I STILL FEEL LOST WITHOUT YOU HERE. WORDS CAN'T EXPLAIN HOW I FEEL. I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO SEE YOU. I KNOW YOU ENJOY BEING IN HEAVEN BUT I WANT YOU HERE WITH ME. THE PAIN I CARRY EVERYDAY BEING WITHOUT YOU IS SO HORRIBLE. WHY DID YOU DO IT SON? WHY DIDN'T YOU WANNA STAY HERE WITH ME AND SHELBY? WE MISS YOU SO MU SON. MY HEART WILL BE FOREVER BROKEN UNTIL ALL OF ARE TOGETHER AGAIN.
PLEASE SEND ME SOME KIND OF THAT YOU ARE STILL WITH ME SON.
hey you :) / Carly Stewart (girlfriend)
i miss you so much shaun. i try to put on a strong front and pretend like everythings ok, but its not. you know what i am going through right now and please hold my hand and be with me through it all. i love you michael shaun. i know you hear my thoughts and prayers please give me the peace of mind. please give me answers. i dont understand why you had to go. i know you are in a better place now, and youre not hurtin anymore. but is it selfish of me to wish you would have stayed? i play that video over and over again on my phone just to here those few words, just to hear your voice again. i cherish every moment i spent with you, the good and the bad. we had some crazy times. i know youll be with me forever and i cant wait to be with you in heaven. you better be behavin up there! i love you jaws :). always and forever no matter what. Close
I WAS SITTING HERE WITH YOU ON MY MIND AND MISSING YOU. I REALLY NEED TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE OK AND HAPPY. JUST PLEASE SHOW ME SOME KIND OF SIGN. IT IS COMING UP ON YOUR YEAR ANGELVERSARY AND I AM STARTING TO GET ANGRY AGAIN BECAUSE I WANT YOU BACK HERE WITH ME. I KNOW I AM BEING SELFISH BUT I MISS YOU SON. EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO FLOOD MY MIND AND I AM SO ANGRY. PLEASE JUST LET ME FEEL YOU WITH ME.
PLEASE BE WITH SHELBY AND HELP ME TO GUIDE HER AND BRING HER SOME COMFORT IN DEALING WITH LOSING YOU AND YOUR ANGELVERSARY TOO.
I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU HAPPY VALENTINES DAY AND I LOVE AND MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. I WAS THINKING TONIGHT ABOUT WHAT WE DID LAST YEAR FOR VALENTINES DAY. I WISH I COULD GO BACK IN TIME AND HAVE THAT DAY WITH YOU AGAIN.. BUT, CARLY CAME HOME AND CARRIE AND TRENT CAME BY TO SEE ME SO I DIDN'T CRY TODAY. NOT YET ANYWAYS.
ME & SHELBY WAS REMEMBERING HOW YOU WOULD BE UP COOKING EVERY MORNING AT 3:00 COOKING HER A GRILL CHEESE SANDWICH. YESTERDAY FOR THE FIRST TIME SHE TOLD ME SHE MISSED YOU. SON, PLEASE JUST LET HER REMEMBER THE GOOD TIMES AND NOT HAVE THE PAIN THAT I CARRY EVERYDAY. I FEEL LIKE PART OF MY HEART IS GONE AND I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO SEE YOU. BUT, I PROMISE WE WILL BE TOGETHER SOON.
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY MY BABY BOY!!
I'M SENDING YOU BUNCHES OF KISSES TO HEAVEN!!! MUAH
hi shaun / Kerri Rhodes (friend)
well tonight i am just sittin here thinking of you i miss you a lot shaun:)you was something so special to me and i hope you always knew that!there is nothing in this world i want more then to see you 3 boys i lost that meant so much to me!i mean i thought you could talk to me about anything shaun why did you not come to me and talk to me you knew i would always be here for you!NO i didnt like you on tha drugs but hey i was on them too so it didnt really matter!i love and miss you so much shaun i have been thinkin of you so much here lately it is killing me!!i love you and fly high Close
I AM REALLY HAVING A PROBLEM MISSING YOU SO MUCH. ALL I DO IS CRY, CRY & CRY MORE. I STILL REPLAY THAT DAY IN MY HEAD A MILLION TIMES A DAY TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHAT HAPPENED OR DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG OR IF I HAD ONLY SEEN YOU WITH THE GUN. I AM HAVING THE FLASHES REALLY BAD. I NEED YOU SO MUCH. WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAVE ME?
PLEASE HELP ME TO GUIDE SHELBY IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. SHE MISSES HER BROTHER SO MUCH. SHE HAS A BLACK HAT THAT SHE WEARS TURNED AROUND BACKWARDS LIKE YOU DID. SOMETIMES I THINK YOU LIVE THRU HER BECAUSE SHE HAS PICKED UP SOME OF YOUR HABITS. SHE DID WIN ANOTHER POETRY CONTEST. I AM REALLY PROUD OF HER FOR THAT. BUT, I STAY SO HORRIFIED OF SOMETHING HAPPENEING TO HER.
CARLY CAME DOWN TO VISIT THIS PAST WEEKEND. WE CAME OUT AND VISITED YOU. I KNOW YOU WAS THRILLED TO DEATH THAT SHE CAME TO VISIT YOU. SHE ALSO MADE ME THE MOST BEAUTIFUL SCRAPBOOK OF YOU. IT IS PRICELESS TO ME. BUT, I REALLY ENJOYED HER BEING HERE. WHEN SHE IS HERE IT IS LKE HAVING A PIECE OF YOU HERE.
SON, I REALLY NEED YOU TO BE WITH ME AND HELP ME HOLD IT TOGETHER. I WISH I HAD SEEN YOU WITH THE GUN THAT DAY. THEN IT WOULD'VE BEEN ME INSTEAD OF YOU. I WOULD'VE TAKEN THAT BULLET FOR YOU. PLEASE SHOW ME HOW TO DEAL WITH IT. I CAN'T LET YOU GO. YOU ARE MY CHILD AND I DON'T KNOW HOW. FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE I CAN'T PUT IT BACK TOGETHER. I CAN'T PICK UP THE PIECES AND GO ON. I DON'T KNOW HOW. I KNOW YOU ARE HAPPY AND FREE BUT I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO JUST SEE YOU AND TELL YOU THAT I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. YOU AND SHELBY ARE MY HEART AND SOUL.
PLEASE COME AND VISIT ME SOON AND LET ME FEEL YOUR PRESENCE. I AM SO LOST WITHOUT YOU. I HARDLY LEAVE MY BEDROOM. I STAY LOCKED UP IN HERE BECAUSE THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE I FEEL SAFE. PLEASE HELP ME SON.
MY PRECIOUS FRIEND, I SENSE THAT YOU NEED SOME LOVING AND HUGS. THIS IS SO HARD, I KNOW, I FEEL YOUR PAIN, MY PRECIOUS FRIEND!! EVERY TEAR YOU SHED, I SHED TOO! SOMETIMES WE JUST WANT TO SCREAM AT THE TOP OF OUR LUNGS, OR HIT SOMETHING, OR THROUGH SOMETHING~WELL, MY FRIEND. GO AHEAD, SCREAM IN THE SHOWER~GET A PUNCHING BAG, AND HIT IT AS HARD AS YOU CAN~BUY SOME OLD PLATES AT A GARAGE SALE, THEN THROUGH THEM ON THE FLOOR(JUST DON'T HURT YOURSELF WHILE DOING IT, K?) I'M HEAR, IF YOU NEED TO TALK, CRY, OR EVEN YELL(JUST BE GENTLE,LOL). I MEAN IT! MY PHONE NUMBER IS: 586-477-9300 (H) 248-210-0310 (C). YOU ARE ALWAYS AND FOREVER IN MY PRAYERS. I KNOW YOUR PAIN AND YOU KNOW MINE~LOVE AND HUGS~~
i miss you so much shaun these days are getting harder and harder to bare!i love you and today is my seventeenth birthday and i have been taken it pretty hard!i love you and always know that shaun you are my whole world ok!and nothing can ever change that!
but anywho ima get of your page just be with me the next few days jeremy johnsons birthday is the 18 sunday and i am going to take it so hard he turns 19 i love him shaun and you know how much i loved yall now i stand here all alone in this darkness please guide me in the right direction i need you so bad!i love you bye
are getting harder for me to go through shaun;i was at school today and found out that my whole last semester was not even worth going for because they gave me no credit over my attendance and then they said i could not go to attendance school!
i am so upset shaun i feel it aint even worth going to school anymore.then im an aunt kayla is pregnant shaun oh goodness i wish i could hear what you was saying about this one.lol..
i love you and just wanted to come by and say that!hope you are having a great time.i love you fly high
shaun shaun / Kerri Rhodes (friend)
wow!i miss you so much!my words cant even explain.you was someone i could come to when i needed help on how to handle my stuff!you was someone so special.gahh all these people coming in and out of my life!and i still cant find the right one!but i love you and hope your new year is going great!actually you called me last year and started screaming in the fone lol!i miss you so much shaun.even though there was some stuff you didnt agree on much that i did but i knew you loved me because if you didnt you wouldnt have kept talking to me when i needed you!its so hard for us with all these hollidays shaun and you not being here you was the smile of everything you brightened the room when we walked in shaun if you was that stressed out why in the world did you not call me like you always did!it hurts so bad i know i could have helped you shaun i need you in my life you all i had to talk to when it came to some stuff!!i miss you.and i really cant wait to walk through heavens doors and you will be standing there with that big ol' smile and them arms wide open!!i love you and fly high Close
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