I LOVE & MISS YOU WITH ALL MY HEART & SOUL!

MOMA

  



A Kiss To You On Mother's Day

A kiss to you on Mother's day,
a hug from me to you.
I know that you are sad sometimes,
I know that you are blue.
Please wipe away that tear,
and put on a happy face.
For I'm with God in Heaven now,
and oh, Mommy, what a wonderful place!
God gave me wings so I could fly,
they are white with a hint of blue.
I'm a big boy Mommy, with these wings of mine
they carry me down to visit you.
God is teaching me how to catch your prayers,
prayers that come as wishes.
Your wish is the same everyday,
a wish that I could have stayed.
I have a prayer for you now Mommy,
I pray that you will hear.
God needed me here with him,
I have no pain or fear.
For I am an Angel now you see,
I watch over you each night and day.
A little piece of Heaven on earth,
guiding you on your way.
I come to tuck you in each night,
as you wanted to do with me.
I hear your prayers and kiss your cheek,
and then I watch you dream.
Before I leave you and go back home,
I look at you and sigh.
And as I fly back to Heaven
I sing you a lullaby.
A kiss to you on Mother's Day,
a hug from me to you.
I love you Mommy, please don't cry,
you'll get to hold me soon.

HAPPY FIRST ANGELVERSARY SHAUN!

TODAY A YEAR AGO YOU LEFT ME TO GO TO YOUR HEAVENLY HOME. NOT A DAY GOES BY THAT I DON'T CRY FOR YOU. I MOSTLY CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP SO SHELBY DOESN'T HEAR ME. I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE TO HAVE YOU BACK. I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU LEFT ME. ALL I KNOW IS A HUGE PART OF ME DIED WITH YOU. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH IT OR HOW TO LET YOU GO. I BLAME MYSELF SO MUCH FOR YOUR DEATH. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW YOU FOUND THE GUN BECAUSE I HAD HID IT IN A DIFFERENT PLACE. ALL I KNOW IS MY BABY BOY IS FOREVER GONE. YOU HANG OUT WITH SKINNER HE WILL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND TELL HIM WE ALL MISS HIM. BUT, I'M GLAD HE IS THERE WITH YOU AND JACOB AND HIS BABY GIRL. SON, YOU WILL BE FOREVER MISSED AND LOVED DEARLY. I MISS AND LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL MY BLUE EYED ANGEL! YOU FLY HIGH AND PLEASE SEND ME SOME KIND OF SIGN THAT YOU ARE STILL WITH ME.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

MY SHAUN-SHAUN, 

MOM & SHELBY

WE MISS & LOVE YOU!

MOMA & SHELBY

 
This memorial website was created in loving memory of  Michael Shaun Whitaker ~ beloved son, brother, grandson, nephew, cousin and friend. God blessed us with Shaun on December 2, 1989. Shaun went home to be with the Lord on March 17, 2008.

Please light a candle in loving memory of Shaun so I will know that you visited.  Thank you for all your prayers and support.

MY BLUE EYED ANGEL!!!

Shaun-Shaun, you will forever remain in our hearts.  We love you and miss you so much! You will always be MY Blue Eyed Angel!

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The Loss Of A Child

The moment that I knew you had died,
My heart split in two,
The one side filled with memories,
The other died with you.

I often lay awake at night,
When the world is fast asleep,
And take a walk down memory lane,
With tears upon my cheek.

Remembering you is easy,
I do it every day,
But missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.

I hold you tightly within my heart,
And there you will remain,
Life has gone on without you,
But it never will be the same.

For those who still have their children,
Treat them with tender care,
You will never know the emptiness,
As when you turn and they are not there.

Don't tell me that you understand,
don't tell me that you know.
Don't tell me that I will survive,
How I will surely grow.

Don't tell me this is just a test,
That I am truly blessed.
That I am chosen for the task,
Apart from all the rest.

Don't come at me with answers
That can only come from me,
Don't tell me how my grief will pass,
That I will soon be free.

Don't stand in pious judgment
Of the bonds I must untie,
Don't tell me how to grieve,
Don't tell me when to cry.

Accept me in my ups and downs,
I need someone to share,
Just hold my hand and let me cry,
And say, "My friend, I care

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me 

When tomorrow starts without me
and I'm not here to see...
If the sun should rise and find your
eyes filled with tears for me,

I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today...
While thinking of the many things
we didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,
as much as I love you...
And each time you think of me,
I know you'll miss me, too.

But when tomorrow starts without me,
please try to understand...
That Jesus came and called my name
and took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready
in heaven far above...
And that I'd have to leave behind
all those I dearly love.

So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart...
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here in your heart.

~Author Unknown~

Homesick by Mercy Me

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place

Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow

I've never been more homesick than now
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We could not know the timing
When God would call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
You did not go alone,
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one,
The Chain will link again.

You'll Always Be My Big Brother

Somewhere in my dreams tonight
I'll see you standing there
You look at me with a smile
"Life isn't always fair"

You say you were chosen for his garden
His preciously hand picked bouquet
"God really needed me,
That's why I couldn't stay"

It's said to be that angels
Are sent from above
I've always had my angel
My brother - whose heart was filled with love

Wherever the ocean meets the sky
There will be memories of you and I
When I look up at that sky so blue
All I see are visions of you

"While there's a heart in me, you'll be a part of me."
~Author Unknown~

Letter to Mom

Mom, please don’t feel guilty
It was just my time to go.
I see you are still feeling sad
And the tears just seem to flow.
We all come to earth for our lifetime
And for some it’s not many years.
I don’t want you to keep crying
You are shedding so many tears.
I haven’t really left you
Even though it may seem so.
I have just gone to my Heavenly home
And I’m closer to you than you know.
Just believe that when you say my name
I’m standing next to you.
I know you long to see me
But there’s nothing I can do.
I’ll still send you messages
And hope you understand.
That when your time comes to “cross-over”
I’ll be there to take your hand.
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A Mother's Love

A Mother's Love is special
A Mother's Love is always there
A Mother's Love is not occassional.
A Mother's Love is so deep
That when her child is in trouble
she can't even sleep.
A Mother's Love Is always with her child
even when they get a little wild.
A Mother's Love never let's her give up on her child
even when they do get wild.
A Mother's Love is so strong that
she is still there even when
her child has done wrong.
Even if it is hard for her to understand
She will stand by her child to the end.
A Mother's Love is truly a pleasure
even when you are a little under the weatther
So, when things get really bad
try not to be so sad.
Because when you think a Mother's Love is traditional
A Mother's Love is truly unconditional.
That is what makes a Mother's Love so special.



Written By: Chiree Whitaker
To My Son: Michael Shaun Whitaker
October 29, 2006

Memories

If we could have a lifetime with
A dream that would come true,
We'd pray to God with all our hearts
For yesterday and You.
A thousand words can't bring you back
We know because we've tried....
Neither will a thousand tears
We know because we've cried....
You left behind our broken hearts
And happy memories too....
But we never wanted memories
We only wanted You.

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday
And days before that too.

We think of you in silence
We often speak your name.
All we have now are memories
And a picture in a frame.

Your memory is our keepsake
With which we'll never part.
God holds you in His arms
We hold you in our hearts.


I walked away that morning, without a backward glance,
I didn't know that moment was going to be our last.
The last time I would hold you or see your lovely face,
The last time I would kiss you and feel your strong embrace.

So solid and so real,so vibrant and alive,
A happy face with twinkling eyes, my fine young man, my child.
My first-born son; my Shaun, the apple of my eye,
so cruelly taken from me, I never said goodbye.

The shattered remnant of my heart is strangely beating still,
with holes so black and fathomless no light could ever fill.
I don't know how I face each day without my darling boy.
Gone is all the happiness, the love of life, the joy.

The years stretch on before me, so bleak and dark and long,
I pray you walk beside me, son, and help to keep me strong.
And when my life is over, come to me on that day,
and smile at me and hold me tight and carry me away.

The wind that whispers through the trees, the brightest star at night,
a rainbow on a dismal day, a shaft of golden light,
All these are signs you send to me, a message from above,
that even death can't break the bonds of Son and Mother Love...
~Author unknown~




Hello

I came bye your page somehow and seen your son, I hope you don't mind. But, I felt these words and wanted to send them to you and send my condolences. I too lost a boy of 18 not to long ago. This is a poem for you from my heart and yours to keep and its copywrites. I have placed it within my website of poetry and you can visit it anytime (unless you would rather me not have it there) and I will remove it. God bless my friend and never let anyone take away your most cherished memories! I will be back to light his candle again. Peace to you and your son Michael. http://allpoetry.com/getsbetter

In memory of:

Michael shaun Whitaker
12/2/89 to 3/17/08

'Oh dear boy, ...another gone
a mother weeps from dusk til dawn
In her broken sleep she patiently awaits
with a wounded heart in dire straits
Too see your face again and hold you near
it never stops, "That endless tear"
A son full of dreams that never came
anyone that knew you will never be the same
you're to young my friend to leave this earth
it was just yesterday it was your birth
Sweet memories of you will never die
as so many bow their heads and cry
Prayers to the heavens are sent with care
to a beautiful son with a soul so rare!

Today I sit and think about you
And all the things we’ll never get to do.
You were taken from me way to soon.
I think of you when I look at the Sun, the Sky,
And everynight when I look at the Stars and the Moon.
How will I ever survive with out you?
This I do not know
Because you were my first born child
You are my only Son.
Now, I know that I am the lucky one
Because the Lord blessed me
For 18 years with you my son, my Shaun.
All I have left now are memories and tears
How will I ever make it thru the years?
This I do not know
Oh Shaun, How I miss you SO!!!!

Written for my son

Shaun Whitaker

12-02-89 thru 3-17-08

Gone but in my heart forever!

My Guradian Angel 

                             I have a Guardian Angel from above.

He is flying like a free white dove.

He went to his Heavenly home

My heart breaks constantly because he is gone.

You see My Guardian Angel is my son,

His name is Michael Shaun.

Sometimes I can feel him with me,

and, it is those times that I know he is free.

Oh, your life was way too short,

I never got to the chance to tell you I Love You.

Because, In a blink of an eye you were gone.

Now, Shelby and I are left here all alone.

Our hearts are filled with so much sadness

But, at the same time we have the gladness

Because we have something special

We have our Guardian Angel!

 WE MISS YOU SO MUCH SHAUN!

FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS!

MOMA & SHELBY




The Moment they told me you were dead

I had all of these thoughts and memories going thru my head.

Everyday I think about joining you

But, I still have things to do.

I long for that day

There is so much we never got to say.

I sit and think about your birth,

It was truly a blessing.

I sit and think about you death,

It is truly devastating.

 





 Immorality

Do not stand  at my grave and weep -

I am not there,

I do not sleep, I am a thousand winds that blow.

I am the diamond glints on snow,

I am the sunlight on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you wake in the morning's hush

I am the swift upflinging rush

of quiet birds in circling flight,

I am the soft starshine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry.

I am not there. I did not die!

We Are Angel Mommys

We have shared our tears and our sorrows,
We have given encouragement to each other,
Given hope for a brighter tomorrow,
We share the title of grieving mother.

Some of us lost older daughters or sons,
Who we watched grow over the years,
Some have lost their babies before their lives began.
But no matter the age, we cry the same tears.

We understand each others pain,
The bond we share is very strong.
With each other there is no need to explain.
The path we walk is hard and long.

Our children brought us together.
They didn’t want us on this journey alone.
They knew we needed each other,
To survive the pain of them being gone.

So take my hand my friend,
We may stumble and fall along the way.
But we’ll get up and try again,
Because together we can make it day by day.

We can give each other hope.
We’ll create a place where we belong.
Together we will find ways to cope,
Because we are Angel Moms and together we are strong








It Wasn't My Intention

Another day to wonder,
another day to mourn,
It wasn't my intention,
to go before the coming dawn.

My pain was deep within my heart,
and in my troubled head.
It wasn't my intention,
To go with words unsaid.

My frame of mind seemed normal,
or so I heard them say.
It wasn't my intention,
Not to see another Day.

I didn't mean to make you suffer,
or cause you so much pain.
It wasn't my intention,
to never see you again.

Despair and confusion,
Left my aching mind unsure,
It wasn't my intention,
To suddenly close life's door.

If only I could give you reasons,
and brush the tears away,
It wasn't my intention,
To leave you and not to stay.

I did not mean for you to grieve,
Now left alone to cry;
It wasn't my intention to leave you,
forever asking why.

As the burden of this life's worries,
Slowly disolved from my heart,
Know it wasn't my intention,
To tear your soul apart.





ONE IN SORROW

"LET ME COME IN WHERE YOU ARE WEEPING, FRIEND,
AND LET ME TAKE YOUR HAND.
I, WHO HAVE KNOWN A SORROW SUCH AS YOURS,
CAN UNDERSTAND.
LET ME COME IN...I WOULD BE VERY STILL
BESIDE YOU IN YOUR GRIEF;
I WOULD NOT BID YOU CEASE YOUR WEEPING, FRIEND,
TEARS BRING RELIEF.
LET ME COME IN....I WOULD ONLY BREATHE A PRAYER,
AND HOLD YOUR HAND,
FOR I HAVE KNOWN A SORROW SUCH AS YOURS,
AND UNDERSTAND."
....GRACE NOLL GROWELL








Dear Mom,

 I am sorry that you are hurting. You should know that you were a wonderful mother, friend, inspiration and confidant. You brought me into this world with loving arms and I was sent out with those same arms wrapped around me. Its true that there is no love like a mothers love. You proved that time and time again. I was only on this earth for awhile and I know that to you it was not long enough. You think that my life was unfarelly cut short and it may have been. However I am now basking in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ. You have many angels watching over you, never doubt that. You may not feel my presence or think I am around often but I assure you I will always be with you. I cannot take away the heartache, I cannot take away the sorrow or the grief that you are consumed with. I can pray for you just as you did for me night after night. You have a life to live and you give life, love and happiness to all that are around you. You are a beacon of hope to so many. You don't even realize how many lives you have touched and how many lives you will save over your lifetime. I am alive in you, and you will tell my story.
I am grateful to have had you as my mother. I lived in you for nine months and now I will live through you and in your heart for eternity. So dry your eyes, hold your head high, put a smile on your face and say..."You are my son and I will let go of the grief and sorrow and let your love shine through me".







HAPPY VALENTINES DAY SHAUN 2009

WE MADE THIS PIC JUST FOR YOU

ALL OF YOUR FAVORITE GIRLS

WE MISS YOU SO MUCH SON!

CARLY, CARRIE, MOM, SHELBY

 
I found this poem and wanted to share it with one person in particular...she will
know when she reads it....I love you Girl...

You ask me how I'm feeling
But do you really want to know ?
The moment I try telling you
You say you have to go.
How can I tell you
What it's been like for me ?
I'm haunted and I'm broken
By things that you can't see.
You ask me how I'm holding up
But do you really care ?
The second I try to speak my heart
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely
You see, no one comes around,
I'll take the words I want to say
And quietly choke them down.
Everyone avoids me now
Because they don't know what to say,
They tell me, " I'll be there for you. "
Then they turn and walk away.
Call me if you need me
That's what everybody said
But how can I call & scream into the phone
My God, my son is dead...
No one will really let me
Say the words I need to say,
Why does a mother's grief
Scare everyone away.
I'm tired of pretending
As my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things that make you uncomfortable
But my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things
That are too sad to be told,
Of the helplessness of holding a child
Who in your arms grows cold.
Maybe you can tell me
How should one behave,
Who's had to follow their child's casket
Watched it perched above a grave.
You cannot imagine
What it was like that day,
To place a final kiss upon that box
And have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me
And I believe that you do,
If you really want to help me
Here is what I need from you.
Just sit down beside me
Reach out and take my hand,
Say, " My friend, I've come to listen,
I want to understand. "
Just hold my hand and listen
That's all you need to do,
And if, by chance, I shed a tear
It's okay if you do, too.....

In Memory of Michael Shaun Whitaker....